The Year That Was 2017
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
- Psalm 139:16
2017 flew by just like that. It was a great year for me and for my faith. But for the first few months, it felt like i was still floating. My life still had no direction. I was filled with worries and I was still very angry.
2016 was, dare I say, a shitty year to be quite honest. It was the year my dad died, and so many things changed with in a blink of an eye. Everything was getting out of control. My life was so dark. I was so depressed, I had no one to turn to. I felt like I had no right to grieve… to be sad about my dad dying. I had no chance to fall apart because my mom’s also falling apart. we can’t both be falling apart. I don’t have anyone else to talk to because I feel like I’m being selfish, wallowing in my worst nightmare.
Thank God my friend referred me to Victory because if not, I might not be here, sitting in front of my laptop blogging (during my break time), sharing all of these things to you today. Yes, my life and my thoughts were THAT dark back then.
This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person.
The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
- 2 Corinthians 5:17
Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.
For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.
- Matthew 7:13-14
No, it wasn’t easy (it’s not hard, but it’s not easy). Sure, being a part of a group that shares the same faith and goal (to know, worship, glorify and love God more) as you do is fun and enriching but keeping the fire alive, is harder than I thought. It takes more time, effort and passion than I thought.
I’m saying this because I’m not a religious person prior to joining Victory. I barely held a bible in my hands and I lost touch to God as I grew older. Which means, I rarely prayed.
Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed.
If one person falls, the other can reach out and help.
But someone who falls alone is in real trouble.
- Ecclesiastes 4:9-10
But having these people in my life made it less of an effort, and more of a passion. Little by little, these people were beginning to change me, my lifestyle and my perspective. They’re the ones who wont let me fall off the edge. They’re the ones who have kept me going.
God knows how many times I’ve almost given up. I lost the fire. One day, August of last year, the revelations, the manifestation and the connection to His Word – all of it, gone. At that point in my life, I literally felt nothing. I’m back to zero. I almost wanted to quit because I felt completely empty. I felt so betrayed. (I’ll explain this in a story time video soon) But they, (particularly my leader/accountability) never left me. They were there. Praying for me. Gracing me with God’s Words that woke me up all of a sudden. I honestly don’t know how they did it. God’s faithfulness never cease to amaze me.
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord.
“They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
- Jeremiah 29:11
2017 has been a roller coaster ride, but it was pretty manageable. Sure, I can enumerate lots of times when I felt like I wanted to give up. There were lots of moments where I had no choice but to just fall apart, kneel and cry it all out. But through it all, the good outweighs the bad.
I thought 2016 was a year of realizations for myself but I was wrong. 2017 made me discover more about myself and I think this is just the beginning.
I discovered that I really enjoyed being a member of my church and I cant wait to go back. I can’t wait to join a ministry. I also realized that I enjoyed reading the bible [and other Christian books] and there’s nothing more pleasurable than meditating in God’s Word. My only prayer is that I can impart all of these things to other people. Especially to others who are as lonely and desperate as I was.
Sing to the Lord; praise his name.
Each day proclaim the good news that he saves.
Publish his glorious deeds among the nations.
Tell everyone about the amazing things he does.
Great is the Lord! He is most worthy of praise!
He is to be feared above all gods.
- Psalm 96:2-4
So here it is. I usually don’t post my personal stuff here because I originally intended for this blog to be solely about beauty blogging. But that’s about to change this year. This year, I’ll be blogging not only about beauty, but I’ll also try to blog about lifestyle. and most importantly, I’ll be sharing more about my faith.
I’m not sure how this will go along with you (my readers) and how this will mash up together. More importantly, I’m not even sure about the topics I’ll be blogging about with regard to my faith. I’m figuring this out as I go along. But one thing I figured out during the last quarter of 2017 is that I can’t just blog about beauty anymore. I have to incorporate something that I’m also passionate about. Which is my faith. I hope you like this and you’ll support this new undertaking of mine as you have supported my beauty blog before.
Also, I’ll still be explaining why suddenly stopped. I’m just gathering the courage to do it.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
- Lamentations 3:22-23
Again, 2017 overall has been a great year. And I can’t wait to see what 2018 holds for me. All I know is God’s got my back and as long as I have faith, He will carry me through whatever hurdle I may come across.
I pray that whoever you are, wherever you may be, whatever struggles you may be having right now, I pray that you will find comfort in knowing that God is always faithful in keeping His promises. Whatever you’re going through may not make any sense right now, but He has big plans for us (Jeremiah 29:11 – read and meditate on it). He is not the author of bad things. He works behind the scenes and He makes all things work together for the better. We just don’t see it yet. Just be patient. His grace is unimaginable and He loves us. He will not abandon us. Just have faith learn how to trust His timing.
Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
- Hebrews 11:1
Happy New Year Everyone!
See you next time!